I apologize for the delay the night didn't go quite as I planned. Now, to answer the question I know is eating you alive at this point, these are the cards I pulled asking if J will still be in your life:
Queen of Cups- Two of Pentacles (Reversed)- Ace of Swords
Deep breath, Juliet! J is not gone for good, however I do get that upon returning he might be a bit wishy -washy, going back and forth as he pleases. While there is a certain level of sensitivity towards you, it also seems like there could me a door for immaturity and game playing to happen hear. I am not entirely sure of your situation, but if this does begin to happen don't put up with that crap for long! J does appear to care for you and in spite of whatever has happened, I don't feel he wants to simply erase you from his life. Ace of Swords is a pretty good indicator of communication but what I'm also getting from it is that though things feel quite tumultuous right now, this period can actually end up helping you both realize what it is you truly want out of this relationship.
I'm a little drained at the moment but I will do another spread regarding his feelings at the moment tomorrow. I'll do a slightly different spread that will give insight while also offering you advice. I hope this first part helps and I'm sorry again for the hold up.